Dealing with loss on the holidays

Well this year didn’t quite go as planned. The day started off storming.

Im talking thunder, lightning, torrential raining. The whole works. So a pool day was completely out of the picture. Little man goes to his nannies house on Tuesdays so while he played with her and her little one I went with one of my best friends and thrifted. Not before getting my Starbucks B+W Mocha though. The stormy weather and coffee in hand reminded me of fall and Ill be the first to admit I considered turning on christmas music. (Don’t hate me. Im just being honest)

So I do have to confess while I am HUGE on bargain shopping I haven’t thrifted in probably years. I am actually shocked at this considering I grew up thrifting. It use to be one of my favorite things. However it can be SO HARD for me to hold back and not buy everything. Now especially with having a little one. I usually go through a process of putting things in my cart, staring at them. Then five aisles over realizing no I don’t actually love that. Even if it is $1 or $.050.


So what I didn’t know about fourth of July was that it is a HUGE day for people who do thrift. Why? 50% off EVERYTHING. I pulled up ten mins before they opened with the parking lot pretty much empty and within 15 minutes the parking lot was half full of thrifters! I had no idea!! Does anyone else here thrift on the fourth?? Well I am SO GLAD I went!! I was able to find some super cute hoodies, and button ups for little man. That brown jacket you see in the cart I scored for $.99, a denim skirt for $2, and some jeans I am going to attempt to make into cutoff shorts. If the shorts turn out well I will do a DIY on them.

 

 

After I picked up little man we went home and just hung out at home. Because it was fourth of July I put his little outfit on simply for the sake of pictures. Cause come on you have to document this cuteness!! 

While we made the most of the day and he has no idea what he ‘missed out on’ with a pool day, bbq, smores, and fireworks theres a part of my heart that genuinely grieves. See fourth of July was one of the bigger family holidays in my family. My mom loved it, we would go to the beach with my grandparents, parents, and cousins. We would explore the beaches, eat to much watermelon and stay up late watching fireworks.

With the passing of my mom and my grandparents holidays are hard. But its honestly harder when I cannot participate in them. Because when we can do holidays I feel like I am able to continue the tradition of what those who are gone left behind. So today was hard. I wanted to be able to continue the traditions that my mom and grandma loved. I wanted to be in situations that reminded me of their laughter, and jokes. The inside jokes. To be honest this was honestly probably one of the hardest holidays to date since there passing because of this.

 

 

I would love to hear from others who have dealt, or are dealing with this!

Hope you all had a wonderful fourth. Stay safe out there!

 

 

 

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Lets be Honest Mamas : Technology with Kids

Its that time of the month again. No, No. Not that. Honest Mamas time! The lovely Hannah Renee started this online mama group called Lets be Honest Mamas and I am so thankful for it. We chat a bit about each topic and how we do life. One of the fun things is we are all at different stages in motherhood. Some of us have one, others have 3. Some are stay at home mamas, some are work from home, others are working mamas and its all just stinking beautiful. I find inspiration from these ladies.

Do you have an opinion on technology use with kids? Do you worry about being on your phone too much around your babies?

Definitely something I deal with. As of late I have been trying to purposefully leave my phone in another room for 1-3 hours. I always feel amazing after doing that.

Then, I think for a moment and realize wait I have my phone on me for 8+ hours a day. I wish it were the opposite that I was on my phone 1-3 hrs a day and left it in the other room for 8 hours.I find its the first thing I check in the morning and the last thing I stare at as I doze off. So maybe mama needs a technology time out?

 

What age did you or will you allow your kids to play with your phone, iPad, etc.? Do you restrict what they do on it? Will you buy them their own tablet?

My little one is a year old. He is allowed the iPad when we are flying. I talked about that here Tips on how to travel with a baby. Cause um, enough said. Flying in an airplane and being stuck in one spot is enough to make any mama say HERE watch mickey mouse! Or maybe its just me. haha. We will decide whether or not we allow him to use computer, phone, or iPad for educational games as we discover how he learns best.

I am really big on catering to each kids needs. Meaning if one of our kids needs public school and another blossoms in private then we will try and do our best to do just that.  So while one kid may do great at sitting down and reading books and learning, another may flourish in going out and actually doing what we are teaching them.

I really don’t want to buy any of our kids their own devices. I would prefer for them to have to “check out” a family device. Instead of everyone having devices, we all have to share. Again for the sake of more family time, and saving a few dollars doesn’t hurt.

At what age did you (or do you plan to) let your kids watch tv and for how much time per day? Certain tv shows/channels?

Currently the only kid show I let him watch is Mickey Mouse, really though he doesn’t watch it for long. Daddy likes to watch soccer on the weekends and we love watching our Kansas City Royals so typically the only thing on when he is awake is Sports on the weekend. I really try and make sure the TV is not on everyday. I actually grew up without us watching much TV at all and I am thankful for it. Because of it I don’t watch much TV at all on a weekly basis. Maybe 2 hrs a week.

What are your/your babe’s favorite tv shows and movies? Are you concerned with the message it teaches and do you restrict any shows in particular?  

Because we don’t really watch TV I really am not even aware of what all is out there. I definitely will have strict standards though when it comes to what we watch. Shows much teach respect, love, and be teaching kids something educational.

Being goofy is fun and all, but why not just be goofy in real life with your kids instead of some sponge. haha. To answer your question you probably have. Correct, spongebob will NOT ever be allowed in our house. haha.

If you do not use iPad/iPhones as entertainment/distractions while out, what types of activities, toys, explanations do you use?

We do not. I like the idea of trying to use the surroundings as entertainment. I find so often when he is surrounded by toys what he really wants is to explore his surroundings and check out whats on the couch, whats under the chair. To me thats even better. That means less toys in the house!!

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The things they never told me about Motherhood

Going into motherhood I knew I wouldn’t know everything. I knew there would be frustrating days. Exhausting days. Joyful days. Treasured moments…

 

…What I didn’t realize was how much I would learn about myself. 

Since having Isaac I have found myself in situations I never imagined. Both good and bad. In those situations I have found a strength within me that I didn’t know existed. When you have a child there truly is a mama bear, lioness that emerges. No one; nothing, will ever get between you and your child. You want the best for that little human and won’t let anything stop you. Not even yourself.

I remember the first few weeks he was born you would have found me on the floor balling my eyes out wanting the night to end so I could simply get sleep as I rocked him back as this little piranha fed what seemed like 24/7. I was part hysterics because I was exhausted and could barely function. Part mama bear. It was the mama bear that kept me going. It was the ‘no, I will provide for my baby, I will feed him, I will take care of him’ no matter what I am feeling, no matter what I am thinking.

You push past limitations you previously had. You find yourself doing things you never imaged you’d be able to do and think nothing of it.

 

You find yourself opening up in ways you never imagined. I am pretty sure its impossible to not look at a baby and have your heart melt just a little bit. Its in those moments that I choose to open my heart fully and soak up every second of his little person and who he is that day. I’ve begun verbally saying what I am thankful for about him as a person. Speaking destiny and truth over him daily. Theres something about saying it outloud that almost re-affrims and makes it even more real. I really believe in the power of words. I am a verbal processor so that may be where this comes from.

Its in the moments when he is on my hip. His arm curled around mine and he strokes my hair out of security that I am undone. To be his safe place is the highest honor and the scariest thing you could ask someone to be. To be his all.

He has taught me more about what it means to live than anyone. Each day I take time to just sit back and watch him. I watch him unassisted making choices, decisions by himself. What is it that he does? What does he choose to spend his time with?

He loves deeply. He laughs without care. He throws his body back without fear when he is overcome with joy. His eyes light up like he’s never been hurt.

I wanna be more like him in those moments.

 

 

What about you mamas? What have you learned about motherhood?

 

Top is from PinkBlush and can be found HERE ( I am wearing a small for reference)

Currently on sale for $30!

 

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Assumptions on Social Media

I wanna talk about something that’s been on my heart for awhile.

• ASSUMPTIONS •

I’m discovering just how deadly assumptions can be you guys. They can leave desperately hurting people alone. They doubt insecurity. They assume perfection.

Thanks to social media we seem to naturally assume everyone’s life is perfect but what if we turned that around and assumed that everyone was going through something. Would it make us more inclined to reach out to those around us and build up those around us? Instead of sitting back and assuming people are all OK. .

 

Because really when it comes down to it every single person in my life has gone through some kind of crazy or traumatic thing in the last year. And if almost all the people in my life are going through something like that then I’m pretty sure everyone in general is. .

 

ASSUMPTIONS assume that the gals that post all the time about her and her husband have the perfect marriage. When really it could be really that she’s posting those things because those are the only good times that she has to remember in her marriage because they’ve been fighting to save their marriage the past couple years. .

Or when a girl post selfie’s. It could be that those are the only time she truly feels beautiful and she’s putting herself out there… .

Assumptions assume the girl who posts bump pictures all the time had such an easy time getting pregnant when really it took five year and three babies in heaven to get to where she is. .

I wanna challenge you to scroll through social media without assumptions. Full of love. Share the love. If you’ve been going through hard times I can guarantee you someone else is as well. Be the love tonight.

 

Mothers Day with Hallmark

Losing my mom four years ago to cancer makes Mothers Day a bittersweet day. It is a day of remembrance and a day of looking forward. I have my beautiful son that I get to share memories with. Hallmark is a household name when it comes to cards. What I didn’t know was all the gifts they have. This mothers day is a one stop shop at Hallmark.


I love this little “mommy prayers” books. Sometimes when I am out of words this book gives me the words I need. You know those times when you’re at your wits end with your little one? Or to exhausted to put two words together. Or maybe thats just me 😉

 

 

 

This was a sponsored post. All opinions are my own.

Mommy + Me Style

Anytime we can coordinate, we do 😉 I always wanted a little boy so when we found out thats what we were having I was ecstatic! I am not huge on pink so bring on alllll the neutrals and blues for little man.

This blue cold shoulder T-shirt dress is SO LIGHTWEIGHT and comfy.  It is definitely going to be a go to dress when I am out photographing this summer.  I honestly don’t even feel like I’m wearing anything its that comfy. You can get it yourself from Shop Pink Blush HERE. They are one of my favorite trendy online boutique. IMG_1402IMG_1403IMG_1405IMG_1407IMG_1409IMG_1414IMG_1415IMG_1416IMG_1417

His little romper is from Finn +Emma  . Use my link to get 15% off of your purchase of $50 can be purchased HERE .

I am wearing small. I suggest buying your size, or a size small with Pink Blush there clothing typically runs large.

Who he is at 11 months

He’s different than I imagined. Yet when I stop and really think about it who he is, his personality, his likes and dislikes it all makes sense.

He is not fooled by fake happiness. He doesn’t laugh easily but when he does its deep belly laughs that fuel my heart. He is weary of strangers and seems to almost read them before deciding if they’re okay to be around. When he loves you, he stays attached to you. Stroking your hair and arm latched around your arm.  He is definitely our little baby. He is deeply introspective like daddy, introvert like mama, and the perfect blend of our personalities.

 

I had ideas of what he would be like but honestly my husband and I are so polar opposite when it comes to personality I knew it would be an interesting mash up. He really is a beautiful, perfect combination of the two of us.

 

Of course I had to put him in one of our favorite local Kansas City Brands SANDLOT GOODS. Cause well, he was made in KC 😉 This adorable onesie is available HERE online or in stores. (They’re currently having a sale on the gray onesie for only $11!!)