love is an action. NOT a feeling.
I wrote that today in my journal as I fumbled through the words in my heart and my brain trying to put together sentences. As of late I haven’t been very good at it. Putting together sentences that is. My mind is constantly racing. So many things to do, so many things to process. One thing after another tries to bring me down, tries to discourage me. It’s hard you know. I am typically one with a smile on my face and a twinkle in my eye. But the last week has been hard. I will not forget to say that the joy of the Lord has been my strength and that Gods peace surpasses all understanding. This past week I’ve been learning the rawness of love.
love isn’t convenient. It is a self-sacrificing act. You can and probably will get hurt along the way as you invest into others. Sometimes that investment is not always returned. That hurts. I am walking that out as we speak. No finger pointing necessary. God is teaching me through it- that you are to forgive, that you love even when it seems like the hardest thing in the world. Today as I was crying out to God “I can’t, I can’t do it. Ive been hurt, its unfair, its not right” I knew exactly what I was to do. Love. Forgive.
love is patient. Love gives chances. Love makes time. Love makes opportunities to sow into another. Love waits.
love is not self-seeking. I am not going to lie, sometimes I wish it was. Self-seeking that is. I mean wouldn’t that be so much easier? Maybe. But it wouldn’t produce real beautiful fruit that laying down yourself does. This is where pride and humility battle within me. As of late it hasn’t been a long battle. Holy Spirit wins pretty quick. That still small voice that speaks ever so gently to my heart that leads me where I should go, what I should say. What I should do.
love is not a feeling. Oh man. That will shut me up and stop me dead in my tracks. How many times I could have lashed out, how many times I could have opened my big mouth. But love demands my all. Love requires I surrender to it. Feelings are never 100% reality. One moment I could be feeling all high and floaty like a cloud in the sky, and the next moment I could feel like a pig stuck in the mud and that is the very reason why I am not to act on feelings. I am to act on what love is.
love is beautiful. It is, it really is. Sometimes it’s like a sunrise and the birds chirping reminding you to take a look outside otherwise you might miss it. Other times it is like a huge wave crashing over you- it takes you over completely. Love is beautiful though. We are not to compare love to another persons love. Whether in friendships, in family, or in relationships. Love is displayed in different ways to different people. But the foundation remains the same. Love is beautiful, oh so beautiful.
and last but not least.
love is for you.