Wow, what a year! 2011 has surpassed my expectations and dreams to say the least. Yet I feel like it is just a foretaste of what is to come for 2012. In 2011 I found myself holding on to promises, dreams, hopes, goals. But sometimes we hold onto dreams to tightly and as a result there is no room for God to move because we have built a pre-conceived box around our goals and hopes and are only able to see things according to how our mind thinks it will play out. But when we choose to stop grasping so much at the dream in our heart and surrender it to God we find endless possibilities and opportunities. This is what I found this year….
Well I had typed out each month this year and what I did. But a timeline doesn’t seem fitting for this post. Seems like the easy way out. Behind the timeline is what matters. What my heart was going through, the journey God was leading me on. That is why I want to write. That is the purpose of this blog. So I scratched the month-by-month timeline. Because at the end of the day it isn’t about accomplishments, it all comes back to my heart posture before the Lord. So with that said, where have I stood over the last year?
I have found myself clinging to Jesus, to Abba God tighter and fiercer than ever before. You see when you pray for something, and then you stand face to face with answered prayer everything in the world will try and pull you apart BUT all of heaven will be standing there with you backing you up if it is Gods will. Fear will try and grip you, but faith will take over and remind you of what life is all about. Doubt will try and creep into your mind, but Hope will remind you all things are possible with God. Answered prayer comes in so many forms. It is our job to open our eyes and to not limit God to how He will answer those prayers. It is NOT our job to try and answer our own prayers. He is God. He is eternal- His ways are not ours. This I have learned, and am learning how PERFECT His ways are, especially compared to my idea of what I’ve thought my life should/would look like over the years. But the funny thing is if I dig past all the boxes, all the ideas of how my life would plan out at the root of it- it is the same dream. It is the same plan.
This year I choose to take God out of my box I had Him in. When I did I found myself deeper in love, my faith increasing, my hope restored, I found my first love all over again. I found love conquers all. It always has, and always will.
Just let love in.