{What happens if}

{Photocredit: KymberlyJanelle}

So what happens if God really does ask you to sell everything, to leave everything behind and follow Him.

Oh yah. He did. And he continues too. His exact words can be found in Luke 9:23-35:

“23 Then He said to them all, “If anyone desires to come after Me, let him deny himself, and take up his cross daily, and follow Me. 24 For whoever desires to save his life will lose it, but whoever loses his life for My sake will save it. 25 For what profit is it to a man if he gains the whole world, and is himself destroyed or lost?”

Luke 18:22 is another example of Jesus’ words:

” So when Jesus heard these things, He said to him, “You still lack one thing. Sell all that you have and distribute to the poor, and you will have treasure in heaven; and come, follow Me.”

Have you ever had that feeling that what your doing isn’t enough? That there is more? Unsatisfied by what the world has to offer. The 9-5 cycle. Well this has been my life the last couple months. The phrase “Theres more than this” continued to go through my mind day in and day out. Since coming back from the internship it has been a mini roller coaster of discovering who I am in the real world. What do I love. What makes me come alive? Apart from friends, work, family. Who am I? At the very core. What tenderizes my heart and brings tears to my eyes? What makes me come alive.

Picking up my camera reminds me of what I love. I love LIFE. The beauty in the everyday. Taking a minute to just watch, and capture it brings joy to my heart. Traveling also is something I love {Yes, alot of people like going on vacation}, but my love goes beyond that. I love the packing, I LOVE airports, I just love everything about it. Were people find  it hectic, stressful, and annoying I find an opportunity to lean upon God to trust, and pray, to partner with God.  I also love business, I grew up since a little girl coming up with a new business/career path every year, every couple months {bless my parents for supporting me in my ever changing career path I decided on in that season of my life}. Since coming back from the internship I finally picked on that I will focus on {photography}. And I LOVE IT. I could do this for the rest of my life, and maybe I will. Maybe I wont. For now it is what helps me express my heart.  But with all these loves I couldn’t quite find satisfaction in giving myself over to just one of them completely. I didn’t want to be ‘stuck’ being a business woman in the U.S. because I know my heart yearns to be overseas, to be in orphanages, to be with the forgotten people. Yet I didn’t find peace in just getting up, moving overseas and starting an orphanage. I struggled to find how to mesh the two, knowing that somehow they would, but I couldn’t figure it out. {Something someone once said that I love “If you could figure it all out, then God wouldn’t be God”} I don’t know all the details of my life. Nor do I wish  too. That is the beauty of life, seeing how God so perfectly orchestrates my life with people from all over the world without me even knowing. But what I will say is I am SO EXCITED for the plans for the next two years of my life. {More to come in the coming months}. Above all else I am excited for the continually flourishing of my heart in the arms of my beloved.

2011 has been a jumping off point for me in so many ways. In work, in finances, in friendships. The impossible is happening all around me. That which I sowed in tears at the internship is already coming back. I am reaping breakthrough. The picture above that I took yesterday embodies so much of what I want to do through my photography. “I love capturing children as they are, within there surroundings. Its those moments you see everyday that you never think about capturing. Then when there captured you hopefully savor everyday life a little more. Because there is beauty in small beginnings, in the everyday. We just sometimes forget it.” I want people to remember the beauty of life, the beauty of small beginnings. We all start somewhere. And it is a beautiful process.

I have been feeling the desire to simply my life from the things that I clung too. Things. Possessions. There was a night in particular when I was in my room and I just fell to the floor crying. Looking at all I have in my room, all I really need is a bed and a change of clothing. That’s all. Instead over the years Ive found comfort in having a full trendy closet of clothes, in stuff. The more you discover just who the man Jesus is, the more you discover how much you don’t “need” things. {That’s of course not to say that these things are bad. There not. But finding comfort in them is putting them on a pedestal, worshiping them above God is a sin. period. And I had done this over and over again. I am continually reminded of my weakness without Him, and my utter dependence upon this man Jesus.} So what happens if Jesus asks me to leave everything behind? Well He did. And so that is what I am working on doing. One day at a time. Leaving the old man behind, walking in my new identity through Him. Surrendering all to Him. And oh yah, the “things” that have filled my room are finding new homes each week to people who really need them.

Don’t grow weary in the process, He will call you forth. Don’t grow weary in the process, for He is faithful

 

L.O.V.E.

Kymberly Janelle

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