Trying to prepare.

Can anyone prepare for the unknown?


My battle in the last couple years since mom has passed away has been loss. I have feared loss in every area of my life more than you can imagine. Losing your mother isn’t just about losing someone you’ve known your entire life it completely rattles your entire being. Everything you knew, the way you lived your life is now altered.  Everything changes. The person who you were created just like is no longer there to help you, guide you, or give you advice. The person you texted, called, and emailed on a daily and weekly basis has vanished.

As the years have passed (2 yrs, 3.5 months to be exact) since she passed from this earth to eternity I have been faced with some of my greatest fears. They have been brought to the forefront if you will.

While It hasn’t been fun, I do see Gods hand in it. Enabling me to walk through pain, hurt, and facing fears that would have crippled me if I had not addressed them. Let me just make sure and reiterate this in case you have just begun to follow my blog. I do NOT for a moment believe God gave my mom cancer, or that God killed my mom or that God brought pain and death to my family to torture, pain, or punish any of us. I do however believe that there is a silver lining in EVERY situation, not matter how painful.

It just may take longer to see that silver lining the more traumatic the issue.

I have always been honest and open in my blogging about what I am going through with the hope and desire that someone else reading may find encouragement or inspiration in their walk of life.


What are you walking through? How has it changed your daily life?











In the kitchen: Peanut Butter Pie Heaven



Original recipe: HERE

This pie is DELISH!! I have found that I always tweak recipes every time I make them. So I thought I would share my version of this recipe that I found on pinterest.

I will warn you now, this pie is in NO WAY healthy. So if you are looking for a clean eating dessert run the other way fast before you hear about any of the amazing things going into it.

This has to be the EASIEST pie ever. Me and my husband are not big fans of pie. But if something reseembles a cheesecake you better believe we will be all over it!


We both love chocolate and p&b so I added extra yumminess to the top. (Ie: FATTY GOODNESS)

This takes less than 10 minutes to make. Seriously! This will be my go to dessert dish to summer get togethers without a doubt!



3/4 package of cream cheese (softened)

1.5 tubs of whipped cream

1 small container of CREAMY peanut butter

1 graham cracker crust

3 TB Chocolate Chips

3 TB Peanut Butter Chips


Mix together the softened cream cheese, tub of whipped cream, and almost entire small container of peanut butter in your Kitchen aid. Make sure to mix thoroughly so you don’t get any chunks of cream cheese. It is important that the cream cheese is not straight from the fridge. Once it is all mixed thoroughly (taste testing is suggested) pour it all into your graham cracker pie pan. Use a spatula to get every last bit out of the mixing bowl and smooth it all out. Now add a couple SMALL dollops of peanut butter on top and smooth across the top with a butter knife then use a toothpick to make a swirly design.  Then finally sprinkle your pb & chocolate chips on top.

My biggest suggestion is to let it sit for 6-12 hours before you dig in. It really helps it firm up a tad and you want this pie cold. I don’t suggest putting it into the freezer is it will just get hard. This pie is meant to be creamy not quite the consistency of a cheesecake.

Now enjoy that yummy dessert. It is seriously heavenly.


Oh and my last tip. It is best enjoyed in small portions. It is VERY rich.


If you decided to make this let me know how it went!!